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too strong for too long [18 Dec 2011|10:15pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

The other day I was walking to Sprouts on Park to get a few groceries. On my way there I startled a homeless man who was trying to sleep next to a building. He looked at me like I was going to mess with him and I told him I was going to the store and asked if there was anything I could get for him. All he wanted was a pair of socks. I looked at the store but they didn't have any so I got some granola and water and gave him the ones I was wearing. It took me a minute to realize I never would have done that had I not met my roommate Lauren. She has taught me so much about compassion and caring. I feel like I'm in a really great place in my life. There is so much warmth and love coming from everyone around me that its overwhelming.

All we need we have.

2 runaways| leave your body and soul at the door

I need somebody BABY, I need somebody too.... [05 Dec 2011|09:47pm]
[ mood | search and destroy ]

Seeing Iggy and the Stooges last week definitely changed my outlook on life. I've been fucking shit up all weekend and it was glorious. I'm covered in bruises and I can't stop listening to Raw Power.

2 runaways| leave your body and soul at the door

When I was young my mama gave me some advice, she said 'boy don't you know everybody's got a price'! [18 Sep 2011|10:47pm]
Today I woke up early and went hiking by myself. It felt good to be out there alone listening to Thin Lizzy and in the zone. I feel like I need to get back in my routine. I feel like i've just gotten out of control lately and its not really how I like to live. I'm having my parents over for butternut squash and black bean enchiladas tomorrow. I've been trying to cook more which is pretty fun.

Tomorrow I start my new job. Meeting new people is always awkward, but awkwardness is part of my charm.

This weekend has been a weekend full of old friends and new realizations. I can't express how grateful I am for everything that has been going on lately. I am a lucky, lucky girl.

I really miss being in school and having some sort of goal. I feel like I need to be working towards something bigger, something brighter. Then I remember homework, and homework blows.

we're chained
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gangbang suicide [06 May 2011|07:16pm]
[ mood | amused ]

Can I just say I forgot how much I love being single? I'm so excited for the summer and all of the crazy adventures it will bring. The warm weather is starting to bring out all the babes too, mmm. I hope its warm enough to walk to Lafayette for a dip this weekend.

Life is good. Really good. I don't know what changed but I am super extra happy this week and I like it. I am so glad for all of the people in my life and I am so lucky to have such an awesome group of girlfriends.

I really haven't been taking advantage of this whole urban living thing. We are so conditioned to jump in our cars and drive everywhere. So its been really nice walking or biking as many places as possible.

Explosions in the sky at the Hollywood Forever cemetery was epic last weekend. The palm trees swaying in the breeze, the lights. I felt young in a good way. Definitely one of the coolest venues I have ever been to. Taking pops to see Peter Gabriel for his birthday next month. Holler.

I felt like I had more to say than that, but I guess thats it.

leave your body and soul at the door

too much fighting on the dance floor [07 Nov 2009|10:12am]
[ mood | accomplished ]

Man. I love being able to have fun and go out even if I am DD. Last night I went to Hamiltons with Sorrina. We scored good seats at the bar and stayed there till last call. I was chatting it up with these funny guys and one of them ended up being the owner so we got free Pliny all night. I was not drunk nor trying to flirt mind you, so I was a little surprised when he tackled me outside and climbed on top of me in someone's front yard to kiss me. It was an interesting night to say the least.

Oh and I saw the guy that I met last weekend/ had a PG-13 sleepover/exchanged numbers/whatever at Hamiltons. With this girl that "looked like she fell out of the Gap catalog" and he pretended like he didn't know me. Number deleted.

You just can't take life seriously.

It is Day 7 of my 30 day yoga challenge and I'm feeling a little sore. Mostly on my back and quads. But I am becoming waaaay more flexible and its nice. My 8:30 class with David this morning kind of made me want to throw up. In a good way?

San Diego Beer Week is off to a good start. If anyone wants to go to the Dogfish Head cask event tomorrow hit me up.

leave your body and soul at the door

I've racked my brain about a hundred times a day... [25 Jun 2009|08:38am]
Last night I dreamt that I worked for Shepard Fairey and it was amazing. Then I woke up pretty excited about it and realized it was a dream and that I have to go to work at the bank today. Damn.

I think this is a sign that I should head to Boston.

I'm only working until 3:30 today because I have to drive to LA to see Wilco at the Wiltern. I'm pretty frikkin excited because I've never seen them outside a festival and I hear it easy to sneak into the pit at the Wiltern. I was kind of wishing I had someone to go with, but on second thought, going alone means I can stay until the very last song.

Jeff Tweedy here I come.
6 runaways| leave your body and soul at the door

Cant a girl catch a break? [10 May 2008|03:36pm]
Went to see throw rag last night with megan. we had a lot of fun dancing. had a really late night so i decided to ride to work today so that i would wake up a little. had a really good ride, it was nice and cool out. after work i get on my bike to realize that the front tire is flat. i call about five people. no one can pick me up. so i start walking home. i need a patch kit. i need to know how to change my own tire. lesson learned.

these assholes were trying to mess with me and kept getting close to me with their car and yelling trying to startle me, so i get on my bike, flat tire and all, and haul ass to catch up to them at the next stoplight and cuss them out. it felt good. two fucking kids in their baseball uniforms. i think i scared them. but seriously, dont fuck with me. especially when im on my bike.

got home what seemed like six hours later, and opened my mail. i got a scholarship! for three grand. im so happy. now i dont have to worry about being broke for summer school. and still have $$$ left over.

now im going to get golden spoon with lauren hartle!
and then going to see throw rag at a titty bar again tonight. hell yeah.
2 runaways| leave your body and soul at the door

[08 May 2008|01:22pm]
[ mood | excited ]

Today is the most rightous day! The computer guy came over at 7 am to give me my laptop back all fixed! (Fuck you BestBuy). And it is working so well! I missed it so much. And My Itunes is working! All my music magically showed up again so I just "restored" my ipod and now it is reloading all my songs back on it (at least I think this will work)! I am so happy! AND two people want to buy my old bike which = three hundred extra bucks in my pocket. WHICH WOULD RULE RIGHT NOW!

And all my classes were cancelled today except one, pinche teachers. So after the computre guy left I went back to sleep until noon.

Now I just have to go to my contemporary latin american art class. Also on the agenda for today : fakin bacon blts galore, new nick cave cd, and yoga at 730.

leave your body and soul at the door

guaranteed to blow your mind......ANYTIME [02 May 2008|02:09pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

These last few days kicked ass. I am so proud of myself. I've been working out a lot and taking good care of myself. I had the best yoga class of my life last night. The teacher was awesome and she played techno. None of that yoga music with waves crashing on the beach bullarchy. It was like a high school reunion yesterday I saw so many randumb people.

After yoga I'm heading to golden spoon when Megan calls me and says she has about 6 free tickets to see stiff little fingers. Raced home to change and headed downtown. Cassidy and I had a dance party in the very front row where I got head butted and punched in the cheek. So sweaty and fun.

After that we went to KADAN to see John "old man" Johnson DJ. Megan's friend Christine was really sweet and fun. Had the beer I had been wanting basically since breakfast.

Woke up early and cleaned today. Used some boat wipes [ the ones me and heather 'showered' with at coachella hahaha xdirtbagsx] on my car. Visited my Mom at work got some coffee and spent about 70 bucks on groceries. I got all kinds of vegan soups, meats, cheese, ice cream etc. So i'm going to give that another whirl. I'm also trying to buy as much organic produce as possible.

Riding to Flying Panther tonight with Megan and Freddy! It's going to be a good one.

leave your body and soul at the door

[30 Apr 2008|10:41pm]
[ mood | relieved ]

Whenever I ask my favorite customer at work how he is doing he moves his hand slowly from side to side and says "smooooooooth sailing". He's so cute. I love old men. Today he told me "You know the road may be bumpy but I've got pretty good shocks".

I can finally breathe a sigh of relief today. I have nothing to be stressed about. It's all gravy. I think I may actually get a semidecent nights sleep tonight. I ate at Sushi Deli for the first time yesterday and it was so yummy. I want spicy vegan mayo on everything.

I have four exams tomorrow. I'm drinking some coffee and pulling an all nighter. After said exams tomorrow, I'm going straight to 7-11 and buying a 40 and watching a movie. I'm pretty excited. Six more days of classes.

P.S. I secretly love shower caps and doing yoga in the shower.

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[25 Apr 2008|07:37am]
So I applied to do a "shoe drop" with TOMS in Argentina next month. How fucking awesome would that be? Traveling in groups of about fifteen people giving people who need shoes shoesies.

Its perfect timing right after finals, so hopefully I get to go.
1 runaway| leave your body and soul at the door

[24 Apr 2008|08:30pm]
[ mood | X ]

how could i have thought it would have ended up any way other than this?

i need to clean my room/car before coachella. charge camera battery. pack. find tent. buy mass amounts of water. do my spanish homework (optional), return fifty cds from the library, stop stressing out. i'm so stressed out i've been breaking out.

i only went to two of my classes today and then went to OB with Megan. found a lot of stuff i wanted at the antique store, but managed to not buy any of it. i have officially checked out for the semester. i think i might quit showing up until the finalz. school seems like little more than a complete waste of time these days.

all i know is i am looking into volunteering. i want to do something to make a difference. i want to travel and help people.

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[21 Apr 2008|01:06pm]
[ mood | excited ]

got a B on my spanish test. class is cancelled tomorrow! riding my bike to pokez today. my vegan cupcakes turned out AMAZING. happy birthday to stevie and robert smith.

i can't wait to see the cure in june!

say goodbye on a night like this
if it's the last thing we ever do
you never looked as lost as this
sometimes it doesn't even look like you
it goes dark
it goes darker still
please stay
but i watch you like i'm made of stone
as you walk away...

i'm coming to find you if it takes me all night
a witch hunt for another girl
for always and ever is always for you
your trust
the most gorgeously stupid thing i ever cut in the world

say hello on a day like today
say it everytime you move
the way that you look at me now
makes me wish i was you
it goes deep
it goes deeper still
this touch
and the smile and the shake of your head...

i'm coming to find you if it takes me all night
can't stand here like this anymore
for always and ever is always for you
i want it to be perfect
like before...
i want to change it all

i want to change

leave your body and soul at the door

dv vjkdfngirhbXSVNMFRJ-095609UT983UYGRGOWNFIUYGRUIFGD;n [16 Apr 2008|08:08pm]
[ mood | $%@%&^%!$ ]

I try so hard to do what I think is the "right" thing to do that I often forget what it is I WANT to do. That being said, I have no idea what I want anymore. I am confused. About everything.

Do you ever wonder, "What am I doing with my life"?

Why am I here? Why am I even going to school? You know that Zoolander scene, where he is looking in the puddle and asking "Who am I?". Yeah, thats where I'm at right now.

So I'm going to try and stop doing what I think I should be doing and start doing what I feel like doing. I need to trust myself more. You know, i'm not living this life for anyone else but myself. Why is that so hard sometimes?

All I know is I want more than this. I want to go places and help people. I don't want to go to school for six years to end up working in a bank for the rest of my life. I guess the good thing is, it's just starting.

I can't even make sense of this anymore.

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Someone should bring me a burrito in the drive-up tube at my bank today [16 Apr 2008|07:58am]
[ mood | annoyed ]

I am a terrible student lately. I have missed three days of spanish class this week. I really meant to go today but somehow I put my phone on silent and the alarm didn't go off at 6:30. And we have a test tomorrow. I didn't do any of my anthropology studying so I will be up all night cramming for that exam as well. How late is the living room open anyways? I didn't even do my state taxes until this morning. Sorry california. Estoy perezoso. This has got to stop. No more procrastination.

Work all day. Going to a show with Cassidy tonight. And it's really bad because in 3/5 classes I can accept the grades I have gotten on exams so far and not take the final, and I probably shouldn't do that; but if I have to do one more in class essay on samurais or shit that is more history than ART history I might choke someone.

And I wanted to bike to work today and I wokeup to late. And I am out of liuid eyeliner.

And I will never understand boys. Or maybe myself for that matter.

leave your body and soul at the door

[13 Apr 2008|10:03pm]
[ mood | weird ]


And i'm not even going to try and figure out my spanish homework because I DGAF

leave your body and soul at the door

robot rock [12 Apr 2008|07:00pm]
Riding my new bike tonight. I hope I don't
1- get run over
2- fall and die

the guy gave me pedals that clip your feet in (not even gonna try those for a while) and extra tires with pink stripes. i want to get white tape for the handle bars.

woke up early and went on a misison to find estate sales. didnt find much. i love not having to work. i am excited for:
1-the semester to be over (4 weeks and counting)
3-outside lands
4-summer (minus the heat aspect)
5-canoe-ing in my grammas lak this summer

talked to mi abuela y mi tia about going back t NY and NYC this summer. i am stoked o go without my fam and get to do what I ACTUALLY want to do. metropolitan museum of art and little mermaid on broadway haha. drool///

super hero bike ride this weekend. who should i go as?
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[11 Apr 2008|10:20pm]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

So excited! I got a new bike. It's so rad, I can't wait to ride it.

Heather we are totally twinsies.

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[06 Apr 2008|06:26pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

I'm going to have to say i'm creeped out right now. Ok so a few months ago this guy came up to me at target and asked me for my number. I'm a wuss and I gave it to him even though I REALLY didn't want to. He has been calling me at least a few times a month since then. He says he wants me to be a hair model for some bullshit company that he's starting. He's full of shit and I told him this and he insists that it is a "real" mystery product and he wants me to come see it. He's invited me to parties at his house etc and I have told him never to call me again. So this fucker calls today and I try and be even more blunt about no being interested and I ask him why he can't get someone else. He says because I have nice legs. WTF.

Moral of the story: don't give your number out and I think i might change mine.

1 runaway| leave your body and soul at the door

Randumb [06 Apr 2008|09:05am]
I dreamt that I was staying at my Grandma's house in Las Vegas. Her hair was whiter than I had ever seen it and I kept telling her how pretty it was. All my crazy cousins were there. She had an entire drawer full of those plug in smelly things to make your house smell good, and all I could think was who has fifty different smelly plug in things. And there was a jug of milk on the ground that I had to keep stepping around but not knocking over. I don't know why I didn't pick it up. I think because she had a fridge that was built into the cabinets and I was consistently opening the wrong drawer. So I leave my Grandma's house and go to this bar with this girl I have never talked to before, but I always used to see around Grossmont, and her friend. On the way there the girl who was driving took us over a jump in her car and she got in the back seat because she was scared. I was even more scared because now no one was driving.I forgot my wallet at home but they didn't ask for id. I kept saying that I wanted to go to the strip because I had never been to vegas before and they just kept talking about the last girl they took there who hated it. We finally get to the bar. Its tucked in a corner and had blue lights. I felt stoned. We sat at a table with about eight other people I don't know. It was misting in the bar and I asked why. They said it was surf night and I felt silly for asking. So I asked why the fuck they weren't playing beach boys. Everyone kind of ignored me and they kept playing shitty rap music. Then I woke up. And I really miss my Grandma.
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